After a challenging weekend with the girls — including a croup-induced ER visit in the middle of the night, I was in recovery mode. Gearing up for a Sunday evening with pajamas, tea and a good book.
Yet looking at the title of this month’s book club selection (that I’ve yet to start reading!), I had to laugh.
‘Here am I Lord… Send Somebody Else.
It could not have been any more apt. Summarizing, in that very moment, exactly how I was feeling about the calling of motherhood.
I’m not up to the job God. Find somebody else who is.
Sometimes the task assigned to us just feels too hard, too overwhelming, and beyond what we are capable of. Doesn’t it? Moses certainly thought so.
“Who am I that I should go?” he declares in Exodus 3:11.
Who am I? I’m not enough. That’s what he’s really saying to God. Not eloquent enough, not skilled enough, not impressive enough. Not enough.
“Find somebody better”, He tells the Lord, “I’m just not up to it.”
And we do the same. Find reasons and excuses for why we’re not up to the task. Not enough. For our children, our spouse. For God.
Yet God doesn’t care about our resume. He cares more about our obedience. Our willingness to follow the calling He has placed on our life.
“I will be with you,” He replies to Moses in Exodus 3. “I will help you speak and teach you what to say.”
Do you hear what He’s saying. We don’t need to be enough, because He will be enough for us. No matter how tired we are or how insufficient we feel we can rest in the promise of His presence. Knowing His strength will meet us in our moment of need.
Rest assured that God doesn’t want to send somebody else. He has already chosen you. No matter what lies ahead of you today He simply asks you to say three words in surrender. “Here I am.” And He will do the rest.
